Under the circumstances… My life totally sucks more than it could swallow.

My life is so pointless… In CNSHS, I have no one to trust fully, and for my true friends, I can’t keep in touch with them always.

The blankness of the bottomless void in my heart gave me a realization of how my life is. MY LIFE HAS NO POINT. What are friends if you have enemies? What are memories if you have no one to share it with? What is love without anyone to love?

The point in what I am saying, that what I got was not part of my expectations but part of my nightmare. In fact, I didn’t even get a hint of the best things I could get from a new school. A new girl to love…

Why do I feel as if so my soul always remains unfathomed? The cosmic waters above always shows darkness and not enough light. The future shines bright, but in brightness, there will always be dark.

I don’t want to feel this anymore. My thoughts reduced to an infinite blank. Imaginative and creative is not how I think, I am less ambitious now, give me a mile and I’ll take an inch. But, the message I hope whoever reads this comprehends is that, I don’t have real friends now, I have real enemies, and my true friends seem to be at the end of the blank inside my skull. I don’t feel that friends really love me…

It was good to see my friends again… and I made new ones too…

but damn… why did I feel pain in my heart? Pain that I haven’t felt since March 17.

I don’t love “her” anymore… I want somebody else… But why does it make me frown..? I hope she says yes already to stop the pain… So I can forget her already…

I really want to stay and study at Cavite City and not a far place from Cavite City and in Cavite Province….

damn…

the future might be good…

but the present isn’t what i expected…

but what will I be saying 5 years from now?

“The past is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, that is why it is called present…”

There was once a simple rabbit… naughty yet fuuny, noisy but nice. There came a day that the rabbit, still young and clueless, fell for a flower it always sees… The flower was beautiful, simple, witty, and always happy. Not once in the rabbit’s life did it see the flower sad and gloomy. But something was special about this flower, it was nice to the rabbit for in that time… The flower fell for the rabbit, yet, little did the flower know that the rabbit felt the same way. Until the rabbit knew the flower also loved it. The rabbit tried to court the flower… In two days the flower did not hesitate to say yes…  They lasted long. I could not tell how long exactly. Until came a day the flower, little by little, seemed to become disgusted at the rabbit’s behaviour. The flower thought that the rabbit did not love it at all, which is a complete lie as the rabbit loved the flower more than it love itself. The two have not been together since then… The fragrance of the flower seduced the rabbit. The flower, being beautiful, had thorns. Thorns that are sharp as an eagle’s eye. By this, the rabbit’s heart was struck by the incruciating pain of the thorns. The pain was intense, it felt like the rabbit’s chest was everyday torn apart, burnt, cut in half by the pain that the flower inflicted. The meer life of the rabbit was hanging in the balance. The rabbit still had a chance with the flower, for the flower loved it so. But the rabbit was a fool to try to make the flower jealous, causing its chances to become lower. The pain the rabbit was suffering is now enough for the rabbit. The rabbit tried to love again to stop the pain. And the rabbit met The Queen of Hearts. She was called The Queen of Hearts because of her dazzling beauty and stunning appeal, which is of course for the rabbit the Queen’s beauty is nothing compared to the bond the flower and rabbit had. The rabbit tried to love the queen, but still, its heart was still far from enough to be accepted by the queen. The rabbit loved the queen because of many others who were drawn in by the flower’s fragrance, the flower seemed to love another. The reason why the rabbit forced himself to love the queen. The flower, which still has a hint of affection for the rabbit, was let us say a bit jealous, and believed that the rabbit loved the queen more than it loved the flower. The flower… loving many others, yet, still including the baffled and puzzled rabbit, is believing in its opinion that the rabbit loves the queen. Yet the stubborn but truthful rabbit persists on the truth that the rabbit still loves the flower for it was recovering from the pain. The queen, loving somebody else, can not accept the small affection the rabbit has towards her. Still, the queen holds the rabbit close to her heart as they are more than friends, but less than lovers. Now, the rabbit and the flower argue because of their love towards each other, the rabbit suffers too much, but it is not known if the flower truly loves the rabbit as the flower said that it still loves the rabbit. The rabbit is hurt by this thought that the flower loves someone else. But through all of this, the rabbit fights for his love towards the flower. Now, we have come to a conclusion that this metamorphic true story has no happy ending, but sooner or later, I believe it will have a happy ending.

-Juan Miguel “Miggy” Nazareno

I love to write, mahilig ako magsulat, kahit na panget ang sulat ko…

I love to write… writing is one of my hobbies, pag may kung anong inspiration

or idea na somehow na discover ko, I start writing…

I express myself in writing, you might not know that, pero mga classmates ko…

oo, pero mostly na sa bahay ko lang ang iba…

so sa blog ko…

expect to see poetic writings mostly than what I really want to write.